Every year i kinda do a mini reflection here so i guess this year won't be an exception. Sorry i'm probably too lazy to post any photos here i guess this reflection is more for myself.
The past year 2015 has been eventful indeed. From the beginning of the year in January when i was still an intern, to presenting my FYP project, finishing up the bits and pieces in school and eventually graduating after 3 years spent in Ngee Ann to working part time for ARVC from March until the end of May. When i was in NP, i couldn't wait to graduate and now, i miss poly days so much. The freedom, the fun, the interesting things we were studying and researching on. It was only after i graduated that i realised how nice it was to see the girls Malvina, Shana and Esther 5 days a week and sometimes even more. Just like how it was back then when i left Xinmin.
I miss having netball every week, to lead the training, to brush up our ball skills, to have a good work out session with my teammates. It was such great satisfaction to see the players improve over time and i remember how i always loved it when i could be playing alongside the half dozen girls on the same team. After graduation this year, going back as an alumni feels kinda different. But i guess it's because it was a lot less stressful and i didn't have to worry about this and that. Finally just attending training like i did in year 1. But i also kinda miss being captain. I think it's a love-hate thing just like working at ARVC.
I traveled the most i ever traveled too. For the first time, i got to go on a holiday overseas with my friends and for the first time since over 7 (16 if you don't consider genting as overseas) years ago, i got to go on a holiday with my mum. Took off in May for a shopping trip in Bangkok with the other three girls, took a tour in Sydney with my mum in June and another short getaway at Phuket with the basketball guys in August. Most satisfying trip was still with my mum because i was with her and i could take care of her, leaving me nothing to worry about. I guess i need to bring her everywhere i go HAHAHA. And it's part of my daughter duty anyway. The things she do for me, immeasurable. Even though she gets annoying pretty much all the time, i still want to bring her out to see the world. There's so much more i can do for her, i'm still learning how to be a better daughter every single day.
I had my worst ever injuries during the course of last year and now i sprained a sprained finger (used to be my worst ever injury) just seems so pathetic HAHAHA. Sprained my foot from basketball and got a slipped disc from work. I know this is not an injury but i suffered from tension headache and i hope i never suffer from it again. What do i do with an overactive brain? (as quoted from doctor)
Joined my first every marathon and it was a vertical one instead of the conventional flat ground running. Good experience it was and now i know how it feels like to push myself all the way to the end.
Got drunk once too. And never again. According to Yihui, only drink when you are happy. That's some good advice right there.
On the more depressing side, i lost two friends to the sea. It's a painful reminder of how fragile life is and death can strike at any moment any time with no warning at all. Appreciate everything you have in life now and appreciate your loved ones and the friends who stuck around. Leave no regrets for yourself and clear everything up at the moment because regrets are going to stay with you for life.
I've always been conservative about choices in life. I want to make the right decision, the safest one that can cause minimal damage. But truth is, life doesn't come with an instruction manual. So i have decided to go for what i can go for, experience all that there is, try new things that i never dared to try before. After all, life isn't life without ups and downs, the good and the bad.
Do what makes you happy. Unless it's illegal.These are the two quotes i live closely by. And i believe it helps me. Sometimes i doubt myself though, i stopped going the extra mile for certain people, i stopped putting in more effort for certain things. I wonder whether it's mean, or whether it's me learning to start doing things for myself. It's a little thing i reflect upon everyday and i don't know the threshold for both sides. I'll keep it under control i guess.
You don't need to set yourself on fire just to keep others warm.
Played my last concert with X-winds, Xinmin alumni band for the next few years at least too. Gonna miss making music with my saxophone even though i kinda struggle to sound warm and learn the notes. It feels good to be sitting amongst the band and making music together, hearing the melody, harmony, bass. Like painting a picture with sounds. I hope i get to play still if it happens to be during my winter break.
It's the new year which also means i'm flying off soon to Australia to start a new chapter in my life, university. I'm still so thankful for having gotten the scholarship from MOHH because i honestly have no idea how i'm going to pay the school fees if i went into a local university (which NUS and NTU rejected me by the way). I almost called to change my scholarship to a local one (actually i did call but i called again to change my mind) but John persuaded me and encouraged me to take on the overseas opportunity for a broader perspective. I'm thankful that he did and i'm thankful that i listened. I guess this chance to study overseas will allow me to gain more independence and self-discipline. The journey with MOHH so far has been nothing short of fantastic either. I made spoke to new people at every event, made new friends to keep and was given the chance to experience many things like checking out the construction site of a hospital and such. Most memorable one was the Pulau Ubin camp and i'm glad i attended and got through the whole course of it.
I want to thank everyone that stood by me through 2015, and also the ones i've lost in that year. The former were there to spur me on and the latter to teach me the 'don'ts'. I have friends i don't meet for many months at a time, friends that i randomly speak to and spontaneously decide to have a meetup and also friends that i see almost every week. Everyone had something new to teach me, and i'm glad to have known so many different people of different personalities. It's fascinating to get to know how each and every individual is like. I love knowing people.
So my mini reflection wasn't that mini after all. I swear much more thoughts were going on in my head than what was written here. My brain needs to tone down a little on all that activity.
Have a good week ahead everyone! May Monday Blues go away tomorrow!