Its 365 new days with 365 new chances. Still, having said that, it doesn't have to be a new year to start afresh because every single day marks a brand new start. It's nice to take on the year with a few changes in my life. To be honest, they may not be changes i wanted to have but since i wasn't in a very happy place before, i believe these changes will bring me somewhere better. I wish for everyone to have happiness in their very own ways!
Life is fragile, life is short. I've always been one who thinks a lot (that accidentally rhymed). Cliche as it sounds, i'm thankful for good health, the people i've crossed paths with and the people who stayed by my side giving me support whenever i need it. I'm not much of a person who buys gifts on a regular basis or for special events to show my appreciation towards them but i'm one who will always be there for whoever in times of need because i feel that that is the most important. I guess it's because i know how it feels like to be drowning, trying to reach out for a hand with no one there to pull you up. This new year, i strive to go the extra mile for everyone as much as i can.
I may seem like a confident and secure person to others (or so i think) but i hope one day i can be what i seem to be. Most of the time, i'm just a little too good at putting up a strong front and that's partly due to my ego because i really dislike appearing weak. I feel that the only person i can be weak in front of is my other half but i've learnt in the past year that i should never rely on anyone for recovery or happiness. Well, i always knew that but it's easier said than done like many other things. This new year, i strive to be self-sufficient where i can have the ability to fuel myself with motivation, strength, energy, love and happiness.
Acceptance is more difficult than it sounds and denial is always the easier way out. It takes strength, focus and self-discipline to accept things as they are and move along with our lives. Each win we have from the constant struggle within ourselves to not fall back into the state of blame and self-pity is what will keep us going. After all, life isn't fair so we can only make the best out of what we have. Happiness is a subjective experience indeed. As i've mentioned in the past, i was never one who is good at letting go. This new year, i strive to be better at putting the past behind and looking forward to what life has in store for me.
Of course i wished that i could've started this year on a happier note. The wounds are still fresh but i'll let them air so they can heal faster like physical wounds do. I will face it upfront with honesty, no covering up at all. I used to keep my blog on a constant happy tone, hoping to portray my life in a better light. But life isn't all about rainbows and sunshine. It's how we react, how we handle and deal with the dark gloomy days that shape our personalities into who we are today. It's normal to have bad days and instead of burying those terrible things, this new year, i strive to use them as learning opportunities to become a better person altogether.
And just like every year, i will continue to work out as much as i can to stay fit and healthy. Maybe one day i'll finally have abs HAHAHA. Till then. I hope i drag myself out of the house to the gym at 6pm later on.
New Year's Eve was spent having my first driving lesson in circuit. Got nagged at a million times but i'll drive better the next time round. Had Thaipan for dinner at Mandarin Gardens and Salted Caramel for dessert. All-time favourite flavour: Chamomile Honey!
Annual affair at Yuefeng's place was pushed to New Year's Day this year and we had tzechar instead of steamboat. It's probably the better option, less hassle and less chances of overbuying HAHAHA. My friends get excited over grocery shopping. Thankful for our tradition of starting off another year together! To more of such homely gatherings!
My other family
Yay for good attendance!